The Story Of Three: Happy 10th Birthday

Friday, January 15, 2016

Happy 10th Birthday

Dear My Big Guy,

(January 2016)

                 Today you are 10 years old, big #10, I still can't believe it. Today we celebrate you turning 10, although it probably feels like just another normal day for you. I hope you know how much mommy loves you, how much I adore you - how much we all love and adore you! You've taught me over the years how to love deeply and differently - in a good way. I tell you daily that I love you but you've taught me to show you love in other forms, deep compression hugs, cuddles on the couch, high-fives and with endless smiles and laughter. 

I can't believe it's been 10 years since you entered my life, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I remember holding your tiny 6 pound body in my arms feeling like I won the lottery. You were a gorgeous baby boy who has turned into a very handsome young man. 

(Happy 3rd Birthday)

I remember when we received your official Autism diagnosis, my heart sank into my stomach, I was in shock and denial for a while but the signs were there. From that day on we plowed through life head on, early start in school, daily therapy sessions - you weren't letting anything slow you down.

At the moment you say a few words and make a handful of noises, but you've also picked up some sign language and you have no problem getting your point across when needed. You may not be able to carry on a conversation just yet but you are for sure the loudest one in the house. 

Over the years we've had our tough times but we've also had many great times. Your strong, a fighter, the toughest kid I know. When we are not in school, we are at home doing hours of therapy after school. On Sunday's we all attend church together and Ga-Ga's house is our home away from home.

I love that I can take you to run errands - you enjoy pushing the shopping cart and opening the freezer doors at the grocery store. Your favorite places to visit are the local park and Pasados is our favorite mexican restaurant, we try to go when it's not crowded so it doesn't over whelm you. 

(Cayman Islands on our cruise)

We've done things I never thought possible, we went on our first cruise this past March with AOS, just me, you and Little Sister C. We played a few seasons of baseball at Miracle League, and have taken swim lessons at H2ope, we even visited Caring Santa this year. We have made friends with people I never would of met if it weren't for our Autism journey, you've opened my heart and eyes to the special needs world. Before you were born I didn't even know what Autism was and now together we walk this amazing, scary, beautiful, and emotional journey together - I couldn't of asked for a better tour guide. 

Therapy is going good, you still receive OT, PT and Speech, you continue to meet some goals and still struggle with others. I know we'll get there one day, like I said, you are a hard worker and you work even harder when your pushed just a little bit. School has been great, you adore your teacher and friends and we continue to see improvement overall. This is your last year at elementary, (talk about a way to tug at your moms heartstrings), we've started talking about the transition to intermediate school and the changes that will follow. 

My son, you are amazing, you wake up with a smile and go to bed with a smile. You have so many people who care about you and love you, you make friends with almost anyone and everyone. Most days you are in a good mood and just smiling away, it's one of my favorite things about you. Sometimes when you really don't want to do something or are upset tears will start to flow but that's how you express your emotions, you must get the emotional side from me.

(First day of school 2015)

I'm pretty sure I'll have to get a 2nd job soon, I can barely keep up with your clothes and eating habits. I was just telling Ga-Ga the other day I won't be able to shop in our favorite stores anymore because you need tween and bigger sizes now. Like those size 5 youth shoes your wearing, yeah - I could fit into them! You eat more than anyone in the house, I have no idea where it all goes! Your currently about a foot shorter than me, we've decided you will probably be tall and skinny like your uncles.

2016 is the first year I won't be throwing a big birthday party for you, not that I don't want to because I do. However I know it's whats best for you, events like that easily overstimulate you and now that your getting older I think it's time to set new traditions. So this year we are gathering our closest friends and family and meeting up together at your favorite restaurant, no stress for you, no stress for me, just smiles and plenty of food!

I hope double digits are nice to us in the next few years, I have no idea what teen years will be like and I'm so not ready! From your first birthday to your 10th and many many more - I will be with you every step of the way, you can count on it! 

You are my baby, my first born and only son, as I sit here writing this letter to you, I have tears rolling down my cheeks and a heavy heart. I am so proud of you and how far you've come. I have no idea if you'll actually be able to read this letter yourself one day, however I'm happy to read it to you over and over if you'd like. You are so loved Big Brother C, so loved, I am blessed to call you my son. Happy 10th birthday sweet boy!

(Botanical Gardens)

With all my love,


Megan Sutliff said...

Awww I loved this! Happy birthday little man!!

Patti Tucker said...

Such sweet tender mooma love. Happy BIRTH-day to you!